2010 is certainly a year where I come across many crossroads. I believe any turn i choose will define me, not only momentarily but in the years to come.
Yes, i did read Faraesya's blog...as a matter of fact, followed it closely. It is depressing to be relegated to an obscure role now, a role which i don't intend to continue for any time longer.
I don't want to be a hindrance in her life anymore, a third person that rocks somebody's boat. I had my fair share of disappointment, anguish and broken heart. I guess i'm through with that...please stop hurting me anymore.
I don't want to run away from her...but i guess by keeping some distance, i'll let me heal myself and help me focusing on facing the next set of challenges. It's been really hard for me thus far...especially after realising that all my sacrifice and tears just meant nothing. In truth, I hit rock bottom.
So please...don't rub anymore salt into this wound, i'm hurting enough as it is. I'm sorry.
To my dearest D....thank you for your patience, understanding and unconditional love throughout this entire ordeal of mine. I hurt you a lot with my antics related to what I faced, but thank God that you are always beside me through thick and thin. I know that nothing concrete, there are still long way for us to go...but your presence did bring back some lights to my life.
May Faraesya's have a wonderful life ahead with her chosen one. As for you D, i'll cherished our moment together...may we take the journey together in a married bliss.
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