Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Salahkah Aku Terlalu Mencintai Dirimu



Salahkah Aku Terlalu Mencintai Dirimu

Ku tatap dua bola matamu
Tersirat apa yang kan terjadi
Kau ingin pergi dariku
Meninggalkan semua kenangan
Menutup lembaran cerita
Oh sayangku, aku tak mau....

Ku tahu semua akan berakhir
Tapi ku tak rela lepaskanmu
Kau tanya mengapa aku tak ingin pergi darimu
Dan mulutku diam membisu....

Salahkah bila diriku terlalu mencintaimu
Jangan tanyakan mengapa...karena aku tak tahu
Aku pun tak ingin bila kau pergi tinggalkan aku
Masihkah ada hasratmu tuk mencintaiku lagi....

Apakah yang harus aku lakukan
Tuk menarik perhatianmu lagi
Walau pun harus mengiba
Agar kau tetap di sini
Lihat aku duhai sayangku....

Salahkah bila diriku terlalu mencintaimu
Jangan tanyakan mengapa...karena aku tak tahu
Aku pun tak ingin bila kau pergi tinggalkan aku
Masihkah ada hasratmu tuk mencintaiku lagi....

Salahkah bila diriku terlalu mencintaimu
Jangan tanyakan mengapa...karena aku tak tahu
Aku pun tak ingin bila kau pergi tinggalkan aku
Masihkah ada hasratmu tuk mencintaiku lagi....


Salahkah.......

Menjaga Hati



Menjaga Hati

Masih tertinggal bayanganmu
Yang telah membekas
Di relung hatiku

Hujan tanpa henti
Seolah pertanda
Cinta tak di sini lagi
Kau tlah berpaling....

Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
Menjaga segenap cinta
Yang telah kau beri
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu....

Masih adakah cahaya rindumu
Yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu
Aku takkan bisa menghapus dirimu
Meski ku lihat kini kau di seberang sana

Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
Menjaga segenap cinta
Yang telah kau beri
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu....

Andai akhirnya kau tak juga kembali
Aku tetap sendiri menjaga hati

Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
Menjaga segenap cinta
Yang telah kau beri
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu....

Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
Menjaga segenap cinta
Yang telah kau beri
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu....

Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu....


Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Malam ini ku menangis lagi....

Ku terjaga dan menangis, terlalu merindui Faraesya. Terasa amat sengsara. Amat ketat dadaku ini menahan sebak yg terlampau.

Kekadang ku tertanya...adakah sekelumit pun Faraesya tidak merasai kesan pilihannya terhadapku? Atau semua ini terlalu mudah baginya?

Tuhanku....tolonglah aku. Amat sukar sekali aku menempuh hari-hariku dengan hilangnya sebahagian dari diriku. Ingin ku kecapi bahagia....namun hanya bersama Faraesya. Terlalu beratkah permintaanku ini Ya Allah?

Diriku adalah kegagalan...ku gagal dalam bercinta, ku gagal untuk kenal erti bahagia, ku gagal dalam hidup....

Abg terlalu mencintaimu Faraesya...tetap tidak berubah, malah semakin mencintaimu. Moga terdetik jua utk dirimu kembali kepadaku....i love you, love you!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Will it ever be....?

Miserable.....life so miserable now. I'm probably at the lowest ebb of my life, ever.

Stress....life so stressful now. I just sit down at the corner without budge, staring aimlessly at the world.

Lonely....life so lonely now. I lost everything. Longing for Faraesya, miss her a lot. I'm really in pain!

Sad....life so sad now. All my hopes and dreams of a beautiful life with Faraesya seems like so far away.

Dear God....i need Your guidance in this darkest hour of mine.

:( :( :( :( :(

Monday, August 24, 2009

Keep holding on to love....

It has been quite some time since my rship with Faraesya wither like leaves during fall. I'm heartbroken, distraught and loss the sense of direction to keep on living....

Yeah, i know that time heals all wounds....but does true love can easily be replaced? Even now, I still & always remember her. Even bored my friends to death since I always mentioning about her on almost daily basis.

There are people who want me to keep on moving....but I found it really difficult to do so. Numerous blind dates were set up for me, but I always found it hard to move to another stage and forget Faraesya....

I rarely travel outside now. Seeing couples happily with each other and very much in love....give lump in my throat and a big thud on my chest...to a point of nervous breakdown and close to crying....

I do love Faraesya will all my heart and giving my absolute best to make the rship works especially with all the hurdles that are in place. I'm still couldn't understand why after all the effort I put in....she walked away from me and from this life. I'm puzzles, clueless and ashamed of myself.....do i ever be good enough to be loved?

No matter how slim the chance....or how crazy my friends say I were, I'm still holding on to the love that I had and felt with Faraesya. I know that I'm might end up single and lonely for the rest of my life....but what choice do I have?

Being suddenly awake in the middle of the nite after dreaming about Faraesya....suddenly crying when the memories about her came pouring to my mind...and yet, I felt that she is running further and further away from me.

I have taken a vow on myself to love Faraesya forever....and I know that I couldn't love somebody else as I love her......

This is my story....my sad story in love.

Loving you Faraesya.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Go ye olde Magpies!



The club song of my favourite footie club (aussie rules by the way).

Good old Collingwood forever,
we know how to play the game.

Side by side we stick together,
to uphold The Magpies name.

Hear (see) the barrackers a shouting,
as all barrackers should,

Oh, the premiership's a cakewalk
For the good old Collingwood.

Been a part of that 95,000 fans in MCG during 2002's Semi Final was simply awesome. Oh yeah, we are going great guns again this year, now third in the standing with 2 games to go.

Go Pies!!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Rambling....grrrr

It has continued buggering me for quite some time now. I really should find a new job now. 3 years....3 different projects...same result. The bottom line is that the company has no money to spare for "low ranking" development. Left me disgusted. All the pain and effort in developing various Concept Proposals for all the projects came to nought.

What I need is a success story before I embarked to the next chapter of my life. With the current situation, hope is fading away...fast. Somewhat like a thousand tonnes of stone being thrown into the sea.

"3 tahun sini, my projek jgn kater naik, satu paku pun belum diketuk"...so many times I said this statement to the top management. Damn!!!!

New job...new job...where are thou?

My Journey to the Destination.

Pergi Tak Kembali

Setiap insan pasti merasa
Saat perpisahan terakhir
Dunia yang fana akan ditinggalkan
Hanya amalan yang dibawa

Terdengar sayup surah dibaca
Sayunya alunan suara
Cemas di dada...lemah tak bermaya
Terbuka hijab di depan mata

Selamat tinggal pada semua
Berpisah kita selamanya
Kita tak sama nasib di sana
Baikkah atau sebaliknya??

Amalan dan takwa jadi bekalan
Sejahtera bahagia pulang...ke sana

Sekujur badan berselimut putih
Rebah bersemadi sendiri
Mengharap kasih anak dan isteri
Apa mungkin pahala dikirim

Terbaring sempit seluas pusara
Soal-bicara terus bermula
Sesal dan insaf tak berguna lagi
Hancurlah jasad dimamah bumi

Berpisah sudah segalanya
Yang tinggal hanyalah kenangan
Diiring doa dan air mata
Yang pergi takkan kembali lagi

Selamat tinggal pada semua
Berpisah kita selamanya
Kita tak sama nasib di sana
Baikkah atau sebaliknya??

Berpisah sudah segalanya
Yang tinggal hanyalah kenangan
Diiring doa dan air mata
Yang pergi takkan kembali lagi

Amalan dan takwa jadi bekalan
Sejahtera bahagia pulang...ke sana


~ Oh Lord, give me the guidance for my life to be on the righteous path and strength for me to follow your sermon....... Amen.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Live...love...lust... (self-glorified)

As i sit here listening to a bunch of songs by artists such as Noisettes and Lenka....i do feel like my world is just an empty space after all.

Had difficulties sleeping last nite, woke up around 3.30 a.m. and just blankly stare the tv....ahh, the Pandora's box of idiosyncrasy. Surprisingly, an old re-run of CSI that featured my beloved Natalie Davis (yup...the miniature killer) did help to cheer up my mood somewhat.

9 days of seductive seclusion did give me ample time to think about my journey so far and where i'm heading. To put it simply, my life is a mess. Like the "Flying Dutchman" without it's captain... or a pirate lord without his most valuable pieces of 8.

So...the main question...should i do it? Depending on the severity of the situation and the things that i already lose out...life, love, lust (and anything in between)....i guess i should. What's the point of being loyal without reaping any rewards or benefits?

It's never in my attention to be used as pawn on other people's chess board. Rather....i like to own the chess board and have...at least a kingdom of my own.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

The Cable Country


One of my favourite TV shows at this moment is Tricky Business, aired midnite on TVIQ. I always like stories about fledging entrepreneurs trying to stamp their mark in the business world.

Probably I see myself lying deep as per their predicament. Good business ideas, well-to-do start ups but having difficulties elevating themselves from the little leagues. Dire need of investment, lack of resources plus the importance of having a well-rounded support system are common problems faced by these emerging business people.

Comparing the environment within the series (in UK) to the country that I reside in, meritocracy seems to be one important thing that is almost non-existent here. Investors are keen to invest their dollars in businesses that have good potential, well run and helm by people with passion for the industry. These certainly give the extra-push needed by entrepreneurs to push the envelope further and attain success on merit no matter how young there are.

Stories such as Belle & Bunty (picture of their Summer 2009's collection on top) and SuperJam are examples of this anecdote.

However, in this country, meritocracy seems to be replaced by the terms "cable". Unfortunately, it is not your usual copper-based thingy hanging above your head though. It is about who you know that can influence decision makers either in investment decisions, getting contracts or even setting up an appointment. The relevance/knowledge of the "cable" in any particular industry is of no importance, his stature and the persons that he knows dictate the success of your business.

Somewhat embarrassingly. this idea has become a norm. They even are appointed into the Board to serve as "proxy"....which equate to something like "official cable" to that particular company. I have seen many companies with absurd "proxies" sit as the Chairman of the Board with no particular experience whatsoever to the business that the company is in, except that he is a "somebody" or "who's who" to the decision makers.

So, what is this rambling is all about? To appoint this "proxies" is certainly not cheap, and they are there just because of the money...not the passion for the industry. In fact, many companies that are competing on merit lose out to inefficient "proxy"-led companies especially when dealing with getting contracts or incentives given by the government.

As a fledgling company that is trying to soar to greater heights, this whole scenario does make us feeling cheated. gutted and disappointed by the power that is. Why can't we compete on merit? Mano e mano?

Why do we need old grey-haired, pot-bellied, blood-sucking psychopath to be our "face" to success??

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Trouble Is A Friend


Trouble Is A Friend - "Lenka Kripac"

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh
No matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control....

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah
Trouble is a friend of mine, aahh

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road....

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah
Trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah
Trouble is a friend of mine, aahh

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try
Oh, oh, I try....

But he's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah
Trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah
Trouble is a friend of mine, aahh
Ooo...aahh....ooo....aahh....

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Bukan Superman

First time i heard this song, i did laughed about it (for a few minutes at least). Having had the chance to actually sing this song during our band jamming session last time around...it was quite uplifting actually. Oh yeah, first time with me on the keyboard as well. :)

Bukan Superman

Aku bukanlah superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku selalu berkata padaku
Laki-laki tak boleh nangis
Harus selalu kuat...harus selalu tangguh
Harus bisa jadi tahan banting

Tapi ternyata sakitnya cinta
Buat aku menangis....

Aku bukanlah superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku selalu memarahi aku
Jika jatuh air mataku
Kata ayah selalu air mata itu
Adalah tanda kelemahan

Tapi ternyata air mataku
Ternyata jatuh juga....

Aku bukanlah superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku

Ayahku tersayang
Maafkan aku
Jika aku masih menangis

Masih belum bisa
Menjadi seperti
Apa yang ayah selalu mahu

Kita berjanji untuk tidak lagi
Menangis kerna cinta....

Aku bukanlah superman
Aku juga bisa nangis
Jika kekasih hatiku
Pergi meninggalkan aku (3x)

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Photo Gallery #1


Technically my first foray into photography...thanks to my new Nikon SLR. Some pics of my recent trip.

"Journey along the kampong"

"Swing Farah...swing...!"


"Ahhh...low tide"


"Like the contrast between green & blue"


"At a distance...."


"Boating anyone....?"


"Parallel parking...please choose your spot"

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Lonely Guy....haha

Got this song via GChat from FaFau this morning. Yup, that's the song I sang during our last gig a few weeks back. Very catchy tune and so upbeat to sing.

And yeah, the song does somehow "relate" to me....pandai jer you nak kenakan i...:p

Pria Kesepian

Kami adalah pria pria kesepian
Jauh dari rumah dan ditinggalkan cinta
Coba dengar keluhan kami... pria kesepian


Ku... tlah berjanji... akan slalu menjagamu
Tapi... kau selalu pergi... bersama kekasih barumu

Ku... tlah berjanji... gapai cinta malam ini
Tapi... hujan badai telah datang menemaniku


Menikmati pedihnya cinta
Pria kesepian
Menikmati dinginnya hati
Pria kesepian

Apakah diriku terlalu wibawa dan tampan untuk selalu kau miliki
Apakah diriku terlalu wibawa dan tampan untuk selalu kau miliki

Pastilah diriku terlalu wibawa dan tampan untuk selalu kau miliki
Pastilah diriku terlalu wibawa dan tampan untuk selalu kau miliki

Menikmati pedihnya cinta
Pria kesepian
Menikmati dinginnya hati
Pria kesepian

Menikmati pedihnya cinta
Pria kesepian
Menikmati dinginnya hati
Pria kesepian

Kami adalah pria pria kesepian
Jauh dari rumah dan...
ditinggalkan cinta.....

Monday, June 29, 2009

Lé Jeux

Je viens de commencer à apprendre le français il ya quelques semaines. Rien de plus, il suffit de me préparer au monde extérieur. Et oui, ma grammaire est encore mêlé! (* translation at the bottom of this post)

Where should i start? It's been around 6 months after my 5-year plan starts. Nothing much so far, but progress has certainly been made.

Finished my white paper or blueprint (call it in which colour you like, but the purpose are somewhat the same) and should tabled it to the Board in July. My mate and i have discussed in length about the possibility to handle part of the project on our own. Which is interesting, but to come out with circa RM5 mil of investment is certainly no joke.

All of this has brought upon us a phrase..."angel investors". Hmm...does anyone willing to invest in an environmentally-related project? I wonder? We have other options such as Tourism Ministry's development fund...but without a big name attached with us....it would be difficult especially in this country. No wonder there is no mention of "Malaysian Dreams" anywhere. :) Does my membership in UMNO counts for something?

Hopefully the planning part can be unravelled by end of this year. I certainly believed that i found my tru-calling, it's now a matter to make things happen.

Speaking about my 5-year plan, well...there is no mention about love or marriage so far. I guess i just take a break for a while. Having stressed out with many sleepless night was certainly not my cup of tea (or sirap bandung...whichever you like best).

And about Faraesya, my heart still longing for her....but can i get her?? I don't really know.... :(

* I just start to learn French a few weeks ago. Nothing much, just preparing myself to the outside world. And yeah, my grammar is still jumbled up!

Monday, June 22, 2009

And then she came....

Just a quick note since it's already almost 3 a.m. :)

My heartfelt thank you to Farah Fauzana for showing me that there is indeed a life and future after all.

Really enjoyed the trip....lots of fun! And yes, trully life changing.

Yay....!! :)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Inang Bujang dan Dara



A song that refresh me a lot....enjoy....

Inang Bujang Dan Dara

Usahlah bergantung harapan
Pada angin lalu
Kelak merana badan mu dik
Dapat belum tentu....

Jika dah tersurat
Tanah mana pun dia menanti
Kasihkanlah dia
Namun bebaskan jua lah dia....

Rambut ikal mayang, ya sheikh (oh dik)
Bibir bak delima
Aku mabuk kasturi
Haruman berbisa

Jika aku cinta
Tiada lain hanya kau saja
Ini inang sayang
Untuk santapan bujang dan dara....

Tangkap ikan haruan
Dapat si ikan keli
Kalau salah haluan
Cari tok guru belajarlah lagi....

Indung indung lah sayang
Ini joget seri inang

Indung indung lah sayang
Joget dara dan bujang

Indung indung lah sayang
Ini joget seri inang
Indung indung lah sayang
Joget dara dan bujang

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Sarah McLachlan - Blackbird

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life....
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life....
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life....
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.....

Friday, May 22, 2009

Realm of Possibilities - prelude for the future!

Just stepped into my office after came back from Nusajaya this morning, it was a fun day yesterday attending the function with our PM as the VIP. Opportunities to mingle with the heavyweights of Malaysian politics surely cannot be missed.

Had a few coffee table talks with regards to my project especially with the MB. Well, at the end of the day, he will be the one to approve the sum of RM70mil that I'm seeking. A little bit agitated since my marketing kit is still not ready, but I guess that can be sort out during my next private visits to the MB and other ministers in the next couple of months to come.

2009 is certainly a good year for me (so far). Turning around this obscure eco-tourism project to the level that it is now has certainly open up a few eyes. Really thankful for the management's decision in offering me a structural promotion....yay, promotion and salary increase are certainly welcomed!

My plan now is obviously in creating a success story through this project. I give myself a solid 5 years to achieve this goal before hopefully moving on into consultancy. I have a team of good young people to work with and will try to keep the team intact as long as I'm in charge of this project.

Who knows that eco-tourism might be my true calling. And how i wish i could share all of this with Faraesya......love you still and will love you forever.

p/s: to better communicate in English, first change oneself train of thoughts in English. It works wonders.

Monday, May 18, 2009

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

Another song that overwhelmingly captured my sense of emptiness without Faraesya. A song that I'm learning to play with my piano at the moment. Really love you Faraesya.

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it ok

I miss you......

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

"Flimsy Heart" of the unsound mind

It's almost 9.30 am and I just finished giving a presentation to a group of investors at the Lion City. Retreat back to my room for a while to catch a wink or two...goshhh, i guess that i only had 1/2 hour of sleep last nite.

First of all, congratulations to Faraesya in getting an offer to study abroad...well, details are as sketchy as the nite sky (at least for me)....perhaps the "distance" make me the last person to know anything in details.

Yeah, that's the story of my life so far....commit everything and end up with nothing. Not that I'm complaining though.....

Saw in Faraesya's blog....some interesting anecdotes about her marriage plan...guess that I'm now just a distance memory ready to be discarded when the time comes.

Hmm...that's life. Cruel, isn't it? I don't really know. And i don't really know for certain why I couldn't stop loving her up until now. Maybe the notion of "true love is only once" is perfectly spot on. I couldn't move on because i still very much in love with Faraesya and always feels her presence beside me at every moment.

Now I'm back to square one, the same old person 10 years ago. Alone, dejected and unable to love....except this time around, i feel that it will be impossible for me to fall in love again like i did (and still do) with Faraesya.

So, what now? Its hard to move on, and i guess there is only a minuscule of chance she will ever accept me again. Suicide perhaps? Contemplating... :/

Rain or shine, day or nite....i will patiently wait for Faraesya even if it means that i will need to wait for my whole life....!

Clueless....clueless...clueless. At the end of the day, some other guy reap the benefits and I'm left to stare at this blank wall of my flimsy heart.

~ An ode to the unsound mind ~

Monday, February 16, 2009

Someone's Watching Over Me ~ Hillary Duff

"Someone's Watching Over Me"

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high

And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That someone's watching over

Someone's watching over

Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me....

Friday, February 6, 2009

Tears flow freely....

Last nite was the fifth day in a row i dreamnt about Faraesya. Woke up feeling dejected, dissapointed and unhappy when i realised that it was only a dream.

Why can't it be for real??

Honestly. i feel tired living this life. Of all the adversity that i have ever gone through, this is the worst. It sap out all my energy and will to live.

Day and nite, i kept thinking of Faraesya. Tears flow freely....

Dear God, i pray to You for us to be together.

Faraesya...i love you and only you.

No more smiles, no more sunshine, no more happiness in my life. Alone, dejected, clueless and out of love.

:(

Monday, January 12, 2009

Niat by Elyana

A song that captures how I felt to Faraesya, loving you always my sweetheart!

Tahukah engkau apa yang ku rasa
Ketika hatiku merindui
Tika diriku jatuh cinta
Tika diriku bersendiri

Sudikah engkau turut merasa
Gelora hatiku yang mendalam
Cinta suci yang mencengkam
Terasa sukar ku tempuhi

Memang niatku mengharap
Belai cintamu untukku
Moga engkau sayang padaku....

Apalagi andai bercinta
Sudah pasti ku bahagia....

Kerana mu memang ku sayangi

Ingin hatiku....rasa disayangi
Ingin menyayangi....insan sepertimu