Early this week marked a life-changing episode in my life. Spending 2 days with Faraesya at Langkawi...it was like all the memories either it sad, happy or romantic being intertwine into one big picturesque collage.
For the first time ever, I really opened up to Faraesya and critically analysing all my mistakes that i did. Oh my, maafkan abg Faraesya kerana diri ini telah membuatkan cinta kita terdampar layu.
I really love Faraesya....with my whole life and it seems more and more certain that the decision to get engaged this Sunday is proven to be a wrong one.
How can I ever be with Faraesya again?
ezranz
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I'm yours
Faraesya....do i made the right move this time around?
My heart still pretty much yours...and this love remains yours to keep.
Can we be together? Loving each other till the end of our life.....?
~ Like the song Ave Maria, that is how much i adore and love you Faraesya....till eternity.
ezranz~
My heart still pretty much yours...and this love remains yours to keep.
Can we be together? Loving each other till the end of our life.....?
~ Like the song Ave Maria, that is how much i adore and love you Faraesya....till eternity.
ezranz~
Ave Maria
As i sit on my bed at 2 o'clock in the morning, i kept thinking about all the memories i had with Faraesya. To be honest, i can't get her out of my mind and she is still very much a big part of my life.
The best feeling is when she rest over my shoulder when i'm driving. Her sweet rosery smell, how her eyes closed as if oblivious to what happening around us and her soft touch...make me realise how meaningless my life is without her.
Eating together with Faraesya at cafe and restaurants, talking about our life and sharing each other passion....she's just an angel.
And how can i forget the anticipation in waiting the clock to strike 12.40 am....day or night, rain or shine....she always have the time for me.
How i'm still wishing that we are meant to be together. To walk hand-in-hand and experience the journey of life together.
I must admit, that i still love Faraesya dearly.
"Hope....that is what guide me on"
The best feeling is when she rest over my shoulder when i'm driving. Her sweet rosery smell, how her eyes closed as if oblivious to what happening around us and her soft touch...make me realise how meaningless my life is without her.
Eating together with Faraesya at cafe and restaurants, talking about our life and sharing each other passion....she's just an angel.
And how can i forget the anticipation in waiting the clock to strike 12.40 am....day or night, rain or shine....she always have the time for me.
How i'm still wishing that we are meant to be together. To walk hand-in-hand and experience the journey of life together.
I must admit, that i still love Faraesya dearly.
"Hope....that is what guide me on"
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Tiada Intan Tanpa Tekanan
Hehe...i always like this phrase since I first heard about it in school. To put it loosely, "there will be no diamond without pressure".
Where does pressure got me into? Not that far yet, i presumed.
Working life, progress has been rather slow but at least my eccentricity is now recognised by the power to be. 650 acres of land for me to develop...hmm, as the youngest project head in the company...well, i can say it is a good start. Not sure how long i will be here though.
Oh yeah, second stage of implementation for Wicked Teebox's website is now up and running. InsyaAllah this will be the project that sky-rocketed me into the "private-jet" lifestyle that I always dream of. It is just a matter of time....
Another oh yeah....hehe, another practice session tonite with my band. 12 songs to perform....ishh, we better made an EP out of it. I seriously wonder why I haven't pursue singing seriously...probably of my hatred towards all those gossipy things. Oh well, its an interesting hobby especially when people do enjoy my show.
But i think, a couple of things that i really want to eliminate from my life is my non-aggressiveness and procrastination. Come to think of it, I really want to be in that over-ambitious, kinda snobbish guy that I was during school.
It's all about me! me! me!
Haha...now i'm ranting a little bit, but i guess this feeling is mutual.
p/s: great to hear about faraesya's achievement during the conference. Somehow, i always have this sneaky feeling that she could be Malaysia's very own first Nobel Laurette. Hey, at least i can claim that i knew her!
Time to stamp my mark, the way that i know it :)
Where does pressure got me into? Not that far yet, i presumed.
Working life, progress has been rather slow but at least my eccentricity is now recognised by the power to be. 650 acres of land for me to develop...hmm, as the youngest project head in the company...well, i can say it is a good start. Not sure how long i will be here though.
Oh yeah, second stage of implementation for Wicked Teebox's website is now up and running. InsyaAllah this will be the project that sky-rocketed me into the "private-jet" lifestyle that I always dream of. It is just a matter of time....
Another oh yeah....hehe, another practice session tonite with my band. 12 songs to perform....ishh, we better made an EP out of it. I seriously wonder why I haven't pursue singing seriously...probably of my hatred towards all those gossipy things. Oh well, its an interesting hobby especially when people do enjoy my show.
But i think, a couple of things that i really want to eliminate from my life is my non-aggressiveness and procrastination. Come to think of it, I really want to be in that over-ambitious, kinda snobbish guy that I was during school.
It's all about me! me! me!
Haha...now i'm ranting a little bit, but i guess this feeling is mutual.
p/s: great to hear about faraesya's achievement during the conference. Somehow, i always have this sneaky feeling that she could be Malaysia's very own first Nobel Laurette. Hey, at least i can claim that i knew her!
Time to stamp my mark, the way that i know it :)
Monday, November 3, 2008
La question c'est voulez-vous
La question c'est voulez-vous....
Will i? Or will not?
Well, it's reflection time again....the year is almost over and the future is off course nearer.
So, what do I achieved so far?
At last, a "closure" with regards to my past relationship with Faraesya. Yup, its hurt me a lot and devastating but probably that's the best solution for all parties. Time will heal all wound and certainly time will reveal everything. Hopefully there is still a faint silver lining undernearth this dark clouds.
At the same time, found somebody that captured my heart. It's still early going but we are working on it. Our trip to the wedding gallery yesterday was certainly an eye-opener for me. Her maturity belies her years and I certainly lucky to have her on my side. Who can expect that a "meaningless" name i used for my e-maill password a few years ago will turn out to be the name of my soon-to-be fiance (27 days to go....). Talk about irony and self-proclaimed premonition. :)
Work wise, things start rather badly but changed radically since a couple of month ago. The phrase "there is a woman behind a successful man" is certainly up to the point. Still adjusting to the fact that i'm now the Head of a 100-million ringgit venture with several staff to direct....life surely on a different platform now.
On business, Wicked Teebox is now a Sdn Bhd company. A couple of months before the launching of the website and achieving its first milestone. 2009 is expected to be a rather busy and challenging year...but with the help of my business partner, we believe that we can whether the storm.
So....what's next?
I know marriage is on the card next year (which remind me of that lovely wedding card that my friend ordered from Jakarta....another reason for a quick getaway...hehe). Used to choose New Zealand as my honeymoon destination previously...but probably thinking about Scotland now. (Greece will be another great option, if i could get in touch with geGR off course)
Probably stay with my current company until middle of next year, provided that we can clinch the deal for our Nationwide Tour.
Planning for 2 big purchases next year...a house and an S40...dream it big, get it big!
And i guess, i'm still on track to achieve my mantra of "millionaire by 30, billionaire before I die".
La question c'est voulez-vous?
I think i will.
Will i? Or will not?
Well, it's reflection time again....the year is almost over and the future is off course nearer.
So, what do I achieved so far?
At last, a "closure" with regards to my past relationship with Faraesya. Yup, its hurt me a lot and devastating but probably that's the best solution for all parties. Time will heal all wound and certainly time will reveal everything. Hopefully there is still a faint silver lining undernearth this dark clouds.
At the same time, found somebody that captured my heart. It's still early going but we are working on it. Our trip to the wedding gallery yesterday was certainly an eye-opener for me. Her maturity belies her years and I certainly lucky to have her on my side. Who can expect that a "meaningless" name i used for my e-maill password a few years ago will turn out to be the name of my soon-to-be fiance (27 days to go....). Talk about irony and self-proclaimed premonition. :)
Work wise, things start rather badly but changed radically since a couple of month ago. The phrase "there is a woman behind a successful man" is certainly up to the point. Still adjusting to the fact that i'm now the Head of a 100-million ringgit venture with several staff to direct....life surely on a different platform now.
On business, Wicked Teebox is now a Sdn Bhd company. A couple of months before the launching of the website and achieving its first milestone. 2009 is expected to be a rather busy and challenging year...but with the help of my business partner, we believe that we can whether the storm.
So....what's next?
I know marriage is on the card next year (which remind me of that lovely wedding card that my friend ordered from Jakarta....another reason for a quick getaway...hehe). Used to choose New Zealand as my honeymoon destination previously...but probably thinking about Scotland now. (Greece will be another great option, if i could get in touch with geGR off course)
Probably stay with my current company until middle of next year, provided that we can clinch the deal for our Nationwide Tour.
Planning for 2 big purchases next year...a house and an S40...dream it big, get it big!
And i guess, i'm still on track to achieve my mantra of "millionaire by 30, billionaire before I die".
La question c'est voulez-vous?
I think i will.
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