The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find....
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you
I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find....
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
A Journey of Thousand Torns
Early this week marked a life-changing episode in my life. Spending 2 days with Faraesya at Langkawi...it was like all the memories either it sad, happy or romantic being intertwine into one big picturesque collage.
For the first time ever, I really opened up to Faraesya and critically analysing all my mistakes that i did. Oh my, maafkan abg Faraesya kerana diri ini telah membuatkan cinta kita terdampar layu.
I really love Faraesya....with my whole life and it seems more and more certain that the decision to get engaged this Sunday is proven to be a wrong one.
How can I ever be with Faraesya again?
ezranz
For the first time ever, I really opened up to Faraesya and critically analysing all my mistakes that i did. Oh my, maafkan abg Faraesya kerana diri ini telah membuatkan cinta kita terdampar layu.
I really love Faraesya....with my whole life and it seems more and more certain that the decision to get engaged this Sunday is proven to be a wrong one.
How can I ever be with Faraesya again?
ezranz
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I'm yours
Faraesya....do i made the right move this time around?
My heart still pretty much yours...and this love remains yours to keep.
Can we be together? Loving each other till the end of our life.....?
~ Like the song Ave Maria, that is how much i adore and love you Faraesya....till eternity.
ezranz~
My heart still pretty much yours...and this love remains yours to keep.
Can we be together? Loving each other till the end of our life.....?
~ Like the song Ave Maria, that is how much i adore and love you Faraesya....till eternity.
ezranz~
Ave Maria
As i sit on my bed at 2 o'clock in the morning, i kept thinking about all the memories i had with Faraesya. To be honest, i can't get her out of my mind and she is still very much a big part of my life.
The best feeling is when she rest over my shoulder when i'm driving. Her sweet rosery smell, how her eyes closed as if oblivious to what happening around us and her soft touch...make me realise how meaningless my life is without her.
Eating together with Faraesya at cafe and restaurants, talking about our life and sharing each other passion....she's just an angel.
And how can i forget the anticipation in waiting the clock to strike 12.40 am....day or night, rain or shine....she always have the time for me.
How i'm still wishing that we are meant to be together. To walk hand-in-hand and experience the journey of life together.
I must admit, that i still love Faraesya dearly.
"Hope....that is what guide me on"
The best feeling is when she rest over my shoulder when i'm driving. Her sweet rosery smell, how her eyes closed as if oblivious to what happening around us and her soft touch...make me realise how meaningless my life is without her.
Eating together with Faraesya at cafe and restaurants, talking about our life and sharing each other passion....she's just an angel.
And how can i forget the anticipation in waiting the clock to strike 12.40 am....day or night, rain or shine....she always have the time for me.
How i'm still wishing that we are meant to be together. To walk hand-in-hand and experience the journey of life together.
I must admit, that i still love Faraesya dearly.
"Hope....that is what guide me on"
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Tiada Intan Tanpa Tekanan
Hehe...i always like this phrase since I first heard about it in school. To put it loosely, "there will be no diamond without pressure".
Where does pressure got me into? Not that far yet, i presumed.
Working life, progress has been rather slow but at least my eccentricity is now recognised by the power to be. 650 acres of land for me to develop...hmm, as the youngest project head in the company...well, i can say it is a good start. Not sure how long i will be here though.
Oh yeah, second stage of implementation for Wicked Teebox's website is now up and running. InsyaAllah this will be the project that sky-rocketed me into the "private-jet" lifestyle that I always dream of. It is just a matter of time....
Another oh yeah....hehe, another practice session tonite with my band. 12 songs to perform....ishh, we better made an EP out of it. I seriously wonder why I haven't pursue singing seriously...probably of my hatred towards all those gossipy things. Oh well, its an interesting hobby especially when people do enjoy my show.
But i think, a couple of things that i really want to eliminate from my life is my non-aggressiveness and procrastination. Come to think of it, I really want to be in that over-ambitious, kinda snobbish guy that I was during school.
It's all about me! me! me!
Haha...now i'm ranting a little bit, but i guess this feeling is mutual.
p/s: great to hear about faraesya's achievement during the conference. Somehow, i always have this sneaky feeling that she could be Malaysia's very own first Nobel Laurette. Hey, at least i can claim that i knew her!
Time to stamp my mark, the way that i know it :)
Where does pressure got me into? Not that far yet, i presumed.
Working life, progress has been rather slow but at least my eccentricity is now recognised by the power to be. 650 acres of land for me to develop...hmm, as the youngest project head in the company...well, i can say it is a good start. Not sure how long i will be here though.
Oh yeah, second stage of implementation for Wicked Teebox's website is now up and running. InsyaAllah this will be the project that sky-rocketed me into the "private-jet" lifestyle that I always dream of. It is just a matter of time....
Another oh yeah....hehe, another practice session tonite with my band. 12 songs to perform....ishh, we better made an EP out of it. I seriously wonder why I haven't pursue singing seriously...probably of my hatred towards all those gossipy things. Oh well, its an interesting hobby especially when people do enjoy my show.
But i think, a couple of things that i really want to eliminate from my life is my non-aggressiveness and procrastination. Come to think of it, I really want to be in that over-ambitious, kinda snobbish guy that I was during school.
It's all about me! me! me!
Haha...now i'm ranting a little bit, but i guess this feeling is mutual.
p/s: great to hear about faraesya's achievement during the conference. Somehow, i always have this sneaky feeling that she could be Malaysia's very own first Nobel Laurette. Hey, at least i can claim that i knew her!
Time to stamp my mark, the way that i know it :)
Monday, November 3, 2008
La question c'est voulez-vous
La question c'est voulez-vous....
Will i? Or will not?
Well, it's reflection time again....the year is almost over and the future is off course nearer.
So, what do I achieved so far?
At last, a "closure" with regards to my past relationship with Faraesya. Yup, its hurt me a lot and devastating but probably that's the best solution for all parties. Time will heal all wound and certainly time will reveal everything. Hopefully there is still a faint silver lining undernearth this dark clouds.
At the same time, found somebody that captured my heart. It's still early going but we are working on it. Our trip to the wedding gallery yesterday was certainly an eye-opener for me. Her maturity belies her years and I certainly lucky to have her on my side. Who can expect that a "meaningless" name i used for my e-maill password a few years ago will turn out to be the name of my soon-to-be fiance (27 days to go....). Talk about irony and self-proclaimed premonition. :)
Work wise, things start rather badly but changed radically since a couple of month ago. The phrase "there is a woman behind a successful man" is certainly up to the point. Still adjusting to the fact that i'm now the Head of a 100-million ringgit venture with several staff to direct....life surely on a different platform now.
On business, Wicked Teebox is now a Sdn Bhd company. A couple of months before the launching of the website and achieving its first milestone. 2009 is expected to be a rather busy and challenging year...but with the help of my business partner, we believe that we can whether the storm.
So....what's next?
I know marriage is on the card next year (which remind me of that lovely wedding card that my friend ordered from Jakarta....another reason for a quick getaway...hehe). Used to choose New Zealand as my honeymoon destination previously...but probably thinking about Scotland now. (Greece will be another great option, if i could get in touch with geGR off course)
Probably stay with my current company until middle of next year, provided that we can clinch the deal for our Nationwide Tour.
Planning for 2 big purchases next year...a house and an S40...dream it big, get it big!
And i guess, i'm still on track to achieve my mantra of "millionaire by 30, billionaire before I die".
La question c'est voulez-vous?
I think i will.
Will i? Or will not?
Well, it's reflection time again....the year is almost over and the future is off course nearer.
So, what do I achieved so far?
At last, a "closure" with regards to my past relationship with Faraesya. Yup, its hurt me a lot and devastating but probably that's the best solution for all parties. Time will heal all wound and certainly time will reveal everything. Hopefully there is still a faint silver lining undernearth this dark clouds.
At the same time, found somebody that captured my heart. It's still early going but we are working on it. Our trip to the wedding gallery yesterday was certainly an eye-opener for me. Her maturity belies her years and I certainly lucky to have her on my side. Who can expect that a "meaningless" name i used for my e-maill password a few years ago will turn out to be the name of my soon-to-be fiance (27 days to go....). Talk about irony and self-proclaimed premonition. :)
Work wise, things start rather badly but changed radically since a couple of month ago. The phrase "there is a woman behind a successful man" is certainly up to the point. Still adjusting to the fact that i'm now the Head of a 100-million ringgit venture with several staff to direct....life surely on a different platform now.
On business, Wicked Teebox is now a Sdn Bhd company. A couple of months before the launching of the website and achieving its first milestone. 2009 is expected to be a rather busy and challenging year...but with the help of my business partner, we believe that we can whether the storm.
So....what's next?
I know marriage is on the card next year (which remind me of that lovely wedding card that my friend ordered from Jakarta....another reason for a quick getaway...hehe). Used to choose New Zealand as my honeymoon destination previously...but probably thinking about Scotland now. (Greece will be another great option, if i could get in touch with geGR off course)
Probably stay with my current company until middle of next year, provided that we can clinch the deal for our Nationwide Tour.
Planning for 2 big purchases next year...a house and an S40...dream it big, get it big!
And i guess, i'm still on track to achieve my mantra of "millionaire by 30, billionaire before I die".
La question c'est voulez-vous?
I think i will.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
A Closure With Faraesya....
Pemergianmu Faraesya dari hidupku adalah perkara yang terlalu menyeksakan di dalam sejarah diriku. For days and months these tears flow...terkapai ku di dalam kegelapan yang panjang.
Hinggalah ku diselamatkan oleh seseorang yang pada mulanya hanya bersimpati denganku. Dan di sebalik kekalutan itulah segalanya bertaut hingga akhirnya ku mengambil keputusan yang diriku sendiri tidak menyangka.
Hanya sepurnama sahaja lagi detik penyatuan 2 insan yang sama sekali tidak pernah terfikir akan bersama. Namun, jika ini kehendakNya, ku pasrah jua.
Namun, rasa cinta pada Faraesya adalah sesuatu yang abadi dan takkan dapat ditukar ganti. Ku sebenarnya hilang perkataan di dalam menaip warkah ini. Perbualan bersama Faraesya sejak sekian lama seakan menjadi satu "closure" untuk kita terus melangkah di dalm hidup ini ke arah yang masing-masing tentukan.
Kecewa....ya. Sedih...tentu sekali.
Faraesya....ku abadikan kenangan bersamamu di dalam kotak fikiranku. Kau tetap mempunyai tempat yang tertinggi di dalam hatiku.
Maybe for the last time...i love you Faraesya!
Hinggalah ku diselamatkan oleh seseorang yang pada mulanya hanya bersimpati denganku. Dan di sebalik kekalutan itulah segalanya bertaut hingga akhirnya ku mengambil keputusan yang diriku sendiri tidak menyangka.
Hanya sepurnama sahaja lagi detik penyatuan 2 insan yang sama sekali tidak pernah terfikir akan bersama. Namun, jika ini kehendakNya, ku pasrah jua.
Namun, rasa cinta pada Faraesya adalah sesuatu yang abadi dan takkan dapat ditukar ganti. Ku sebenarnya hilang perkataan di dalam menaip warkah ini. Perbualan bersama Faraesya sejak sekian lama seakan menjadi satu "closure" untuk kita terus melangkah di dalm hidup ini ke arah yang masing-masing tentukan.
Kecewa....ya. Sedih...tentu sekali.
Faraesya....ku abadikan kenangan bersamamu di dalam kotak fikiranku. Kau tetap mempunyai tempat yang tertinggi di dalam hatiku.
Maybe for the last time...i love you Faraesya!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Deceit, Lies and Vengeance
It's difficult to comprehend how could this happened to me....
A solid relationship, 2 loving families and everything seem destined for a lifetime of happiness and bliss.
Without warning, things changed for the worse. Deceit, lies and vengeance....not by us Faraesya, but by people that we highly respected.
No matter how hard I try to mend the fences, the further apart you were taken away from me...my only regret about you Faraesya is that how easily you let go of the love that we had build together.
Why Faraesya....why?
A solid relationship, 2 loving families and everything seem destined for a lifetime of happiness and bliss.
Without warning, things changed for the worse. Deceit, lies and vengeance....not by us Faraesya, but by people that we highly respected.
No matter how hard I try to mend the fences, the further apart you were taken away from me...my only regret about you Faraesya is that how easily you let go of the love that we had build together.
Why Faraesya....why?
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Bunga-bunga Cinta
Bunga-Bunga Cinta
Hmmm... oh...
Di kala ku kesepian
Dihanyut ombak nan resah
Kau mengubati kerinduan
Di kala ku keresahan
Dihanyut malam nan gelap
Kau menerangi hidupku
Kini segalanya telah berubah
Cintamu hanya memori indah
Ku ditinggalkan kesepian
Pilu hatiku....
Kembalilah kepadaku
Selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka
Ikatan kita berdua
Sayangilah diri ini
Belailah jiwa nan sepi
Kelayuan... dedaunan keguguran
Dahan nan kerapuhan
Bunga-bunga cinta... layu di pusara
Hmmm... hmmm...
Di kala ku kerinduan
Dihembus angin nan pilu
Kutatapi wajah dirimu
Di kala ku keseorangan
Dihanyut asmara cinta
Kau membelai jiwaku ini
Hanya satu kupinta oh darimu
Hargailah cinta kita oh...
Hargailah cinta kita oh...
Gelora menikam jiwa ini
Berada di hati
Deraian cinta yang suci
"Faraesya"
From the 6th of Dec 2001....
Dari detik cinta kita bertatih, ku terus mengerti akan cinta sejati yg ku bina bersamamu sayang. Kau memberikanku sokongan, harapan di dalam segala kekalutan.
Faraesya,
Detik2 terakhir terlalu mencabar buat kita. Ranjau dan dugaan dari segala arah termasuk dari mereka yg amat kita percayai. Namun kita tetap teguh menongkah arus bersama.
Tetapi, ku sangka cerah hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari. Kita terpisah...ku cuba sedaya upaya menampal segala cela di atas bahtera cinta kita...namun apakan daya, karam juga dipukul badai.
Sedangkan ku kini bertaut di atas sekeping sisa cinta kita, dibawa ombak entah ke mana....ku akan gagahkan juga, mencintaimu hingga ke akhir masa.
Faraesya....tiada cinta seindahmu & tiada insan setandingmu. Ku mencintaimu di mana kau berada sayang.
Dari detik cinta kita bertatih, ku terus mengerti akan cinta sejati yg ku bina bersamamu sayang. Kau memberikanku sokongan, harapan di dalam segala kekalutan.
Faraesya,
Detik2 terakhir terlalu mencabar buat kita. Ranjau dan dugaan dari segala arah termasuk dari mereka yg amat kita percayai. Namun kita tetap teguh menongkah arus bersama.
Tetapi, ku sangka cerah hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari. Kita terpisah...ku cuba sedaya upaya menampal segala cela di atas bahtera cinta kita...namun apakan daya, karam juga dipukul badai.
Sedangkan ku kini bertaut di atas sekeping sisa cinta kita, dibawa ombak entah ke mana....ku akan gagahkan juga, mencintaimu hingga ke akhir masa.
Faraesya....tiada cinta seindahmu & tiada insan setandingmu. Ku mencintaimu di mana kau berada sayang.
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